OUR Foundation of LOVE ♥

Mood: EMO-, Sad.
WEATHER: Rainy Day.
P/S : dear, if you happen t0 read my bl0g, these are all ii wan t0 tell you. S0rry f0r saying all these here.. maybe, i'll find a chance t0 talk with y0u ab0ut it again. S0RRIES.
*p0ofs*
hmm.. rather sadd day.. QUARRELLED AGAIN!
suddenly dun have th urge t0 p0ur 0ut all my tr0ubles here..
but ii feel tht ii cant take it lerrs..
ii feel like ii dun really understandd hiim.
is it t0o late? 0r its better t0 be late than never?
almost 3 years, andd ii find tht ii didn't really understand him tht much.
& perhaps, all b0ys are the same?
th moment they have their games, they'll f0rget everything?
or am ii n0t understanding en0ugh?
ii have been having mixed feelings..
"breaks, breaks, breaks" .
they're fl0oding my mind.
h0wever, at th same time, i dun bear t0 d0 that.
ii did t0ld him tht if ii mention breaks, ii dun mean what ii say.
fr0m th start 0f 0ur relati0nship till now,
we've experienced sweet, bitter, sour, and spice stuffs.
i've criied countless times andd ii have a question in my mind right now..
that is, when ii cried, did that break his heart?
this time, it l0oks rather seri0us..
when ii was walking al0ne t0day, after leaving him, tears welled up in my eyes.
well, actually tears welled up in my eyes countless times but im glad ii held them back.
if n0t i'll be questi0ned. =X.
perhaps, he's sick 0f t0lerating my attitude andd all .
th way he sp0ke t0 me, t0tally different fr0m th past.
and, ii really dun mean what ii say..
he "cupped" his f0ne andd ii decided t0 "cupp" back whenn he returned call.
ended up? ii called him.
andd ii dun bear to "cupp" even when my thumb is on th key, ready t0 press it at any time.
t0day, ii haven had any food since m0rning till noon, except f0r s0me crackers.
waited him till 4 and his f0ne was finally switched on and all ii get from him was tht his laptop have probs.
is y0ur lapt0p that important? twiice. his lapt0p was indeed imp.
my hart br0ke t0 pieces.
even if im angry ii still feel like calling him, talk to him and settle things.
and sometimes i'll just get "cupped" by hiim.
heart br0ke again.
but perhaps like what some pple said, you might be busy and ii might be disturbing you..
-sighs-.
if y0u're feeling upset, why didn't you tell me?
y0u said, t0 share all burdens and tr0ubles but you kept them all in y0ur mind.
if y0u're unhappy with me, tell me. But naturally i'll get work up and start speaking l0udly.
SORRY. sl0wly i'll try changing..
and you n0e what? ii felt v. fo0lish when ii kept calling and texting you when u nvr even reply me..
ii feel like im being a nuisance and y0u might find it disturbing.
perhaps, s0mething fi0na saiid enlightened me..
y0u t0lerated me and my attitude.. perhaps we must really w0rk things 0ut bahs?
ii will try, i guess.
OH YA! eileen, fiona andd myself at bubbletea shop cleared some PEARLS by playing games.
l0ls FIONA ATE 120 PEARLS! hee ii ate quite al0t as well but eileen is lucky! =D.
and ii b0t CJ7, QI ZAI today! soooooo cute! ^^ but mum said it isn't!
alrights, its a l0ng p0st.. ii still have l0ads 0f things t0 say.
but f0r n0w, i'll st0pp here..
thx fi0na, eileen f0r lending me a listening ear.. and perhaps, weeliang as well? (:
nights all, nights dear. sweet dreams.
*po0fs*