walking alone in the morning,
reminded me of the past.
i'm feeling miserable,
who knows?
reminded me of the past.
i'm feeling miserable,
who knows?
okayys.. today walked t school alone.. HE never reply from ytd night's quarrel, nv pick up my call in the morning, nv reply me until 8+.. ii asked myself to try t get use of the life ii had in the past.. its just so difficult.. ITS not the same usual thing dat me and HIM did for a year, walking t school tgt. even if ii walked alone in the past when he asked me t go t school as he is late, i don't feel miserable. why? smses and calls would accompany me all the way.. its not the same thing for today. its NOT. only when ii fiind excuse t get some tissues from cm, get to c him, he called me. only when ii look for him.. heart torn into pieces. feeling miserable each night. suffering from depression? that's wad people think abt me. my heart hurts, cried, hugg my toy, scared it might be wet, put it bak, crying harder and harder. depression? agree? happy wif my answer that im suffering from depression? HE once told me in the past, if ii have depression, he will do his best to get me out of it. but how is he gonna do dat when he doesn't even noe? im prideful. okay.. accept. who knows im feeling miserable now? does HE know? okay my fault luhh. my fault. everything's my fault okay? i started it first.. i hope ii will really go mad one day.. no nid t think so much.. worrying abt HIM. you guys dun understand me. im sensitive.. im not saying that girls cannot tok t him. but, nvm i dun wish t tok abt it anymore. im a crybaby (: im now isolating myself.. this morning when he didn't tok t me or reply me, i feel that baby is gonna b wif dem today but he toked t me.. ii wonder what wld ii do if he abandon me andd go off w dem... will he do dat? i'll type till here.. byebye.